there's a light in your eye that keeps shining..

like a star who cant wait for night...

so im feeling much better about everything. i went and got some energy work done yesterday, which also starts out as talking about all different types of things and one of the topics was spirituality and we got to talking about a lot of stuff, and it all made sense to me, especially about this situation im currently in with r. she really helped me realize that just because i broke off that bond its not a bad thing, i broke off all the old shit, all the old ways, all the confusion and bad feelings, and insecurities so that now we can have it be normal. i guess thats kind of confusing, but overall i have no worries because i know there is a deeper connection and who cares who he dates or who i date, because overall we are going to end up with each other at some point. and its knowing that, that can let us grow together. i also think that if i just keep the faith on the fact that we will end up together sometime will help me get through this. i think that there is a lot of expectations and its not needed. he at least had the sense to tell me that he wasnt ready for me, but he did say that wants to be, and i never really took that as anything. actually like i said in another blog that i dont take anything he says serious because i never believed him or something stupid. so im no longer going to freak out about texts, emails, blah blah blah none of it matters. we are who we are, and it will work when its supposed to work.

i foresee me being here for at least one more year, maybe out of here by the fall or something and then maybe moving back to the east coast somewhere. not sure its philly, but at least somewhere close enough to there to visit pretty regularly. i believe im on the right path and that things are going how they are supposed to. everything that happens is for a reason, and i need to trust myself and the universe more and just know that i know everything already. i know that at some point in my life we will be together. so its just about living life and building a stronger friendship or whatever over the next section of life.

wish me luck!