since im an internet stalker, i found gregs myspace, and thats his status that he put up an hour ago..live life lonely, what the fuck does that mean? i called him about an hour ago and left him a message asking if he wanted to hang out this week, or not, and he never responded, actually we havent been talking too much lately things have been uber weird on the phone and ive been feeling like we both are kind of over this thing, but then on the other hand i feel like we never really gave it a shot. i feel cheated kind of, like i met this cool person and got a taste but it got taken away before i could even swallow it..our timing has been fucked up no doubt, but i was awaiting a nice alone hang out where we could get to know each other and actually talk, but i guess maybe if its meant to work it will and if not it wont. i think we both put too much clout on it, like it was too perfect for both of us, so we automatically decided we met our ones, without even knowing each other, which of course leads to a let down. now im wondering if i was too honest and sounded bitchy or something, or if he assumed i complained too much because i was honest about how i felt, but i guess i cant care about that kind of shit, if people dont like what i gotta say then fuck it right? it just feels weird to be written off so quickly, without a chance. i was giving him a chance, a chance to get settled and do his thing and be all ungrounded and now i feel dissed, and its fucking whack. i wanted to say something about it on the message i left him, but i didnt i just said lets hang out sober and alone and get to know each other, but i guess hes over me. oh well. time to move on i suppose. just like baseball season, both stabs to the heart, but oddly enough the phils loss hurts 10 times more. i put more into it than this situation with greg.
when will i learn to stop getting too ahead of myself?
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