so last nights blog discussed how i feel like greg is over me, and today pretty much proved it..well sort of..he told me "im sorry i havent gotten back to you, im just really stressed about this housing situation and dont want to put the negativity on you" so i take this as, either 1-an excuse that hes just not feeling me, or 2-hes being serious and feels like he needs to ground out and get a place then he can focus on me. of course im hoping for the ladder but who knows. all i can do is wait to see, but im not like waiting waiting around, if something else comes up in the meantime im gonna go for it, but i really hope he does get back to me, and gives this a chance. i hope he loses all his crazy anxieties and just realizes he likes me and just acts like a normal person and starts to date me.
i have this feeling thought that things arent over. i am still semi convinced hes my next boyfriend. i am so sure of it and i think thats why im not so freaked about this whole text message thingy. but yet i am quite sad, because there is that this may be it, and we may never talk again. and yet that means that i got my hopes up again over nothing. then makes me think whats wrong with me? why does this shit keep happening, then i think well fuck it, your time is still coming, just because you hit another speed bump doesnt mean its never happening. it will..
but it does appear to be a long time until the dawn
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