we parted our lips and reached from inside..

i was in a mood today like no other, i felt so weird. i was so not myself, and felt so out of place. i felt uncomfortable in my own skin kind of. im starting to get worried that all this talking online to b has made me socially fucked up now. like i spend the majority of my night talking to him for hours, and so it kind of leaves me not really having anything to say to anyone else, which is weird because i used to be able to tell the same stories or whatever to kole or jenni, but this is different. this whole situation is different. he is getting so deep into me, i dont know if he is ever going to leave. and i dont even think thats a bad thing. im starting to not be so worried about seeing him in real life. i think its going to be awesome, and i bet we spend every second together, and are super happy..(unless something happens over the next 2 months to change that) today one of my friends told me that she ultimately see me and him as friends in the end because of our fundamental differences, (being as though hes pretty much straight edge and im a huge stoner who drinks weekly) i was thinking about it tonight and i can see it not mattering which is super fucking weird, because im the hugest advocate of never dating a non smoker, because it causes so many issues and stuff, but i seriously think we both like each other so much and for so many other reasons that its not going to matter. we are going to be past shit like that (this is of course if we end up dating) i was also thinking why i think its working out so well is because there isnt sex to mess it up. its my favorite part. there is no weird pressure for kissing or fucking or knowing when is too much or whatever. its all about us, our personalities, and just getting to know each other as people. i already am day dreaming of our hangout session, and its funny because i day dream about that kind of stuff all the time with different people through out the years, and always had these romantic thoughts and just being cute in the city walking around like a happy couple, even if just for a weekend, and its weird i see that with him, but like for real, like really happening. i never really thought i would have it. and hey i might be wrong, of course. i am just going with the flow, and the flow seems to be working out pretty good!!