im into techno now...

its so crazy how everyday i question this whole thing, then i talk about it with him and then boom, its okay again. this has always been my problem with dudes, i get weird about something then i run away, and with him i just face him. it may take me a little bit of time, but i just let it out and let go of the weirdness i was feeling and im right back to being super fucking happy and in serious like with him again. he is perfect, and i will not for the life of me understand it if we dont somehow end up together it will make absolutely no sense. this is all the kind of shit that ends you up together. he sent me a package today and i was reading this letter he sent (12 pages worth) and was like butter the whole time. he is so unique and awesome. he is really like nobody ive ever met, and he gets me. he seriously calls me out on my shit and i love it. i realized nobody really does that isnt nikole or jenni. and i think it shows your genuine care and interest in someone when you notice and care enough to call them out on it. its so attractive how interested and excited he is about me. cause i feel the same way, and every time i get nervous or scared about it, i just think of all the awesome stuff i feel about him and it goes away. i love how open we are about everything. we seriously talk about everything, nothing is taboo, im so myself, i dont hide anything, ive never been this open with anyone so quickly and intensely. we talk on the phone or internet for a minimum of 3 hours a day, its crazy. i never get bored, and the hours melt away and nothing else exists during those times. im not even scared of his family finding out anymore, i want them to know so next time im home and we are hanging out its all good. i see it all happening, and im not really scared at all. im really starting to believe that all this talking will overtake anything weird when we see each other, we will be so in awe of each other that it wont matter, we will just be so happy to be together and not even care about appearances or the fact that we havent hung out yet. i dont see it being weird at all. he accepts me for me, he likes me. like likes me for me. all of me. its so different. so different.

ps im into techno now, i listen to drum and bass non stop. well and beach house.