being taken off guard..

so tonight i was looking at my facebook, and i saw like 7 messages about people posting on a pic of me, but i go there and there is nothing, it was so weird, it was from r and his bro. i was so confused, wondering if iwas blocked by one of them or something, so i write r and ask him the scoop, and he went off!! he was like his bros exgirl wrote all this shit about me on there, calling me a bitch and stuff and saying im sleeping with a, and r told me he said that im not a bitch, and one of his best friends, and ive known a longer than she has, and im in with the family and friends, and she has no place talking about me like that and he was sayin to me, nobody calls culbertson a bitch, fuck that, he deleted his own brother off fb and is super mad, it was crazy. i was so confused and baffled, i couldnt believe r was talking about me in such a beautiful light. i never expected that, for him to be defending my honor so much, it was surprising! it made me feel good, and i was trying to talk him down from being so ready to write his bro off, but apparently this was the straw that broke the camels back, but the funnest part is i called it as soon as he posted that pic up on fb...i immediately texted him and was like yo ant gf is gonna go nuts over that pic you put up and he never wrote me back, and then today he was like the crazy part is you called it, you knew this would happen..its just so funny, for a minute i thought i would be pulled back in, and i kinda did..i tried to be the good friend, who was trying to calm him down and talk serious,but then after he didnt respond, i was out, and over it.

onto lighter things, tonight was the first night i talked to b on the phone!! i was kinda nervous about it, but i felt ready. im over the typing, texting and blackberry messenger, i didnt want to read or wait, i wanted to just talk, but im kind of scared its gonna happen all the time now, and i dont know if im ready for that sort of commitment. but yet i am. this dude treats me so well, he gets me more than anyone else i ever have met does. he is patient, and wants to talk to me, he thinks about me and tells me so. he is courting me proper, and its nice. except for the fact that we are 3000 miles away from each other and havent been around one another, its pretty proper. im just going with the flow, and not really talking about it with people. its kind of just mine, and i enjoy it. i mean not really, since im blogging about it, but im not gonna go into detail, i like what we share, and i like that it ours and ours alone. we are so similar its bananas..he has defiantly changed my life. i told him today that he has made me a better person, and he has. he has opened my eyes and my heart and helped me see my issues. even if we are only friends, we will be forever. i hope at least. who knows where this is going, and i dont care. i am just living it.

the new beach house is amazing. listen to it.