i quit the radio today. i woke up and wrote two emails and quit. i am done. finished. over it. im over a lot these days, so much has been so clear to me. i have been laid up in the house and the one day i get to go out and be normal again my car breaks and i need it towed to the mechanic. i have no money, i have no savings, i have nothing. i have me and my dog. im done with that. i want love, i want a career, i want money, i want a house, i want happiness, i want it all. and living the way i live isnt getting me there. i want to be able to be a good person to be able to help people, and show them love and help them become better people and just be. the current way ive been living for 31 years isnt doing that for me. i am still borrowing money from my dad, being late on rent, not being able to pay bills, hiding from bill collectors calling me, its just out of control and its time for me to regain control of my life and my adulthood. and yes it may sound funny that i quit something, but i wasnt happy there. it wasnt the right place for me. i am going to do a blog instead, create my own thing and if people want to hear the music i want them to hear, they will listen to me that way. if not, whatever, but i will be able to do that on my own time and in my own way. i have been doing that show for 4 years almost and its been good for me. ive learned a lot, i figured out my role in radio and im done. im done dealing with julie and katie and everyone. im done with pretending brian isnt crazy and that when he comes in all upset everytime that its ok. i want positive people and things in my life, and that show wasnt it.
more to come later.
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