i did!!
i woke up this morning with this feeling of weirdness about my conversation last night with you know who..i kept thinking about how its all bullshit and how i dont want things with him right now, im nowhere near ready and that i lied about b to him. i wasnt honest, i said those things to appease him, and so i decided to write him an email and let him know the truths. i feel good about it. i really like this standing up for myself thing. i like being honest with people about my feelings and just being real. it works out so well. well in some situations it does,and some it doesnt. either way im real to me and them, so fuck it.
i also think i want to be brians girlfriend. i want to stop being so emotionally unavailable. i want to get deeper and have a more serious relationship with him and i want to tell him when he gets back.im ready to put myself out there a bit more with him. and thanks to r! it all made me realize how much i do like brian and how much i want to be special to someone and go with it for once. everything for a reason right?
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