communication breakdown

its always the same..

its so wild how much just talking about something with someone can really change your attitude and vibes around that person. i totally feel back "in serious like" as i like to call it. there is no way im in love yet, its impossible, but i am way in like. its kinda wild how much my mind can take over and make me feel weird, i need to get a handle on that shit. it can ruin my life if i let it, and sometimes i totally let it. i just dont want to feel needy for anyone, ya know? i want to still live my life, but share it with him too. i do really enjoy my time with him, esp since we actually went out on a date and were in public and such. it felt real, unlike just hanging out at my house. i really want to hang out with him tonight too, but i feel like we arent going to, and maybe we shouldnt, but i just had such a good time last night i want it again. i want to just hang out with him all the time, but i know i cant and 100% should not do that. it would be super unhealthy to do.

im bored hense why im writting this blog, i feel like i dont have much to say, but i just want to do something. i took a nap for 3 hours today, so fucking wild. i guess i was super tired, i feel like thats why he wont want to hang out, we never sleep right when we hang out, and if hes tired hes not gonna wanna chill. woah i just got a weird taste in my mouth for picas pizza, which is odd since i never really liked their pizza that much, but i do love their chicken parm sandwiches! ok well i guess i should eat dinner or something. peace.