as they took his soul, they stole his pride..

i just watched the double rainbow video and i understand how america thinks its funny, it is, but it is also touching. that dude wether on mushrooms or not saw an amazing, mystical natural occurrence. its intense. there are things about the universe and earth that are just so overwhelmingly beautiful and breath taking and its hard to understand how you are lucky enough to get to witness such a beauty. he kept saying over "what does this mean" and i really got it when he said that. he was out there camping, in a very spiritual place, on shrooms and saw this. to him it meant something. and people are fucking laughing at him??? it makes me so upset that our world is like this. people cant be spiritual, open minded, or metaphysical without sounding like a crazy person. i know this because i used to make fun of people for that kind of stuff. oh my god your talking about energies and past lives and psychics and chakras?? i think that these people, most people dont understand or are open enough to understand so they make fun of it. its too hard of a concept to grasp, or they are so wrapped up in their lives to stop and pay attention to whats really going on. we are all here for a reason, a purpose. we choose to come to this life, and we choose every step of the way how to live it. if you are having a seemingly horrible life, change it. do something about it. dont sit around and let it keep getting worse. take action! we all, including myself, have been through hard times when you just cant change it, you have to sit around and wallow in it for a while, but eventually you can get out of it. time heals. i

ive been finding myself feeling uncomfortable around a lot of people these days. people who i feel like i cant be myself around and its weird. i want to be comfortable and myself around them, but i just cant, and i dont get it. i guess im feeling misunderstood or going through an intense period of awakening and its just hard to relate. al the little stuff, doesnt matter. none of it. none of it all together matters. someone is being a dick, fuck em. this confusion or that confusion, talk about it. its just weird life is so simple, but we complicate it over and over and over by words and thoughts and actions. everything has a bottom line, look there and deal with it from that level and it wil be ok. dont let things get out of hand, if you fucked up and know it tell the person. apologize as soon as you realize and let it go. this is advice im giving myself and other people. i find myself focusing on little interactions that have occurred and i hold onto it for so long, it takes over my brain for a while and i literally have to fight it off. i have to sit down with myself and tell myself to let it go, it doesnt matter what happened you dealt with it in whatever way you did and it happened. move on. the more we hold onto things, the more it festers and the more it fucks with us. somehow, subconsciously its there and next time we are in a similar situation we will be weird and act weird and have it be because of that little thing we held onto which we shouldnt have. its silly. moving on really cleans the slate for new experiences to be real and lets us be present.

"nobody ever seems to remember; life is a game we play"-oasis