So odd that now that the day has gone on, that I am feeling okay about V. He kinda annoyed me all day by texting some outrageous stuff, but I got to tell him what was up a few times, laid down my law and I think thats what i have to do. I need to sit down with him and tell him how i feel. All i can do is be honest and open and hope that he accepts what i say and i hope that it makes me like him more. I really do want to make out with him, I think it could be really intense. or it could be really weird and awkward. Either way i need to speak my truth. i realize when i dont, i kinda freak out. i need to always say how i feel and sometimes i just dont know how to or know what to say or how to make the words right, but i know when i do i feel a million times better and it makes me open up more and not just shut down. i know i totally shut down and become a complete asshole, but i know when im doing it its wrong. i know my annoyances are just because i am not doing what i need to do, and kinda has nothing to do with the other person involved. most things are in me, in us, all. its all how we look at stuff and how we connect and relate.
its also mercury retrograde for a few more days, so i assume this kinda shit isnt going anywhere.
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