So this morning i woke up to Sofia barking at my roommate, then i rolled over and all of a sudden "How Soon is Now" came blaring out of my phone. So fucking weird. I immediately turned it off, then realized maybe I was supposed to listen to it. Then it made me feel depressed. The next few songs were, Alive and Kicking, Lips like Sugar, Someday and Half A Person and now its Interpols Hands Away. WHAT THE FUCK? Seriously what is the universe trying to tell me right now? This is so weird. I feel like these songs are telling me to give V a chance. But why? Hes not for me. I knew it before I went to hang out with him. I think hes good friend material, not lover material. But hey who knows. I totally freaked out yesterday. I was weird and kinda hated him. But ive felt that way several times before in my life. Thats when I retreat and hide and be bitchy. This time though, maybe I need to stick it out and see why he was brought into my life. I dont fucking know, I know its weird though. I do like him, i do. He made me feel such a certain way when we met, it was magical, and even for the day after. I felt so intense. I just think yesterday was a bad day to hang out. I should have stayed home and felt better and just hung out with him tonight. There are some things that are deal breakers like his dog smell in his house, its gross. He still kinda is living a life of a hardcore kid. But arent i doing the same thing? I somewhere feel like I am grown up and got my shit together, but I dont. I have posters hanging on my walls too. Actually Tyler actually commented on my Smiths poster in my bedroom and said it looks college like. When I was watching that movie The Future I was noticing their apartment and how they were 35 and it seemed like a kids place too. But maybe thats just our generation, and I think it was kinda the point of the film. We never want to grow up, because we dont really have to. The internet has made jobs available for people to stay in their pjs all day and do nothing.
On a side note, I think LA water is bad for my skin. I have been having trouble with my head itching, and i get these pimple like bumps on it, and all over my body. I wonder how I can remedy this.
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