man what a crazy fucking day i had yesterday! i woke up late and just chilled, talked to my old friend bobby for like 2 hours, made a nice breakfast, watched some tv then took a shower and was getting ready to go watch the eagles game, when bam! a fucking huge earthquake happened!! 6.5 on the richter scale, which is apparently pretty big! the whole house was shaking and moving and i looked outside and the polls were swaying back and fourth and things were falling all over the place and i was just standing in the doorway holding on, hoping that it would stop soon. its so weird when your in an earthquake, they only last for a few seconds but it feels like forever when your in it. its like time stops and your just stuck on this ride, hoping it all ends sooner than later. the power went out immediately which didnt help the craziness! luckily my dad has a generator and i went over there and watched the eagles lose so fucking horribly.
i went out with the girls and decided to get drunk and i wanted to make out with someone so bad. i just feel so annoyed from the whole r situation. he doesnt give a fuck about me. he makes it quite clear, and i feel like a fucking idiot for sending him those birthday things and putting so much time into him, when he really doesnt care. but its good that i know this now, because i will no longer look like an idiot. he didnt even ask me if i was ok in the earthquake, i had people i dont even know ask me..it just shines so bright, rings so loud, that i need to do my thing and say fuck him. im trying to stay present in my daily life and do my things and take care of me and just be happy. but i hate that when i go out and drink i get crazy, this is a common theme of my life. i talk about it all the time, and i am good most of the time, but then i do have night that makes me feel like shit. i need to get over it or just stop doing it completely.
theres a million ways to get it...choose one
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
No comments:
Post a Comment