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listening to yourself on the radio when your not there is quite weird. but yet cool at the same time..i love technology its so wild..

anyway i wish my technology of my phone would ring or beep a text from that dude greg. actually i dont know why im being so weird about this whole thing, i know that he is going to call when he has the time to, and if he doesnt then fuck it, its no lose..but im gonna be honest, i really feel like this dude is gonna be my boyfriend. there is just something inside me that is so sure about it, and its weird because i feel like maybe ive said that before, or whatever, but this time its kinda different, it feels like its just a fact, like there is no question and the weird part is i dont even know him. i seriously hung out with him for maybe an hour and half the time was with my friends, so i dont know why i feel this way, i just do. he just seems right for some reason. i suppose i will find out sooner or later. but i do feel like im in that weird zone of do i make the first call/text or wait for him to? my first thought is well if i dont call him then he might forget about me, or he might think im not interested, but then my brain kicks in and goes umm if he wants to get to know you he will call no matter what. and thats the bottom line. if its meant to be it will be. i cant go chasing it around anymore, if its gonna come its gonna come.

on other fronts, r texted me with some bullshit last night about if i dont want him to text me or write on my facebook, he wont..and it annoyed me so bad, its totally his game with me, he knows he lost me so hes looking for any excuse to talk to me, rather than just talking to me..either way hes out i cut him off from me, so fuck it. i wrote him back and told him he was being dramatic and if he wanted to text me to do so, because we are friends and nothing more so there is no reason to read into anything blah blah and all he wrote back was "my bad" so whateves, im not playing this game with him. i feel really good about that..

mos def is playing a surprise show up in humboldt and im pretty siked. it sucks that its on a day i have to work and have to work the next day too, but i think it will be worth it. im tired of working, im tired in general. i need a few days to just chill, because i have a feeling that the next year is gonna be crazy busy i think good things are coming for me, and im way siked.