equality for all in relationships...

so i talked to greg on the phone tonight, and it was awesome. we really got through that hard awkward period, and even talked about it which is cool, and i told him i really liked how weird our date was yesterday..he agreed..we talked tonight about so much, life, and how we both kind of had the same loveless childhood, and dont really know how to accept peoples love and help, and so i think thats really good for us to have met, because its nice to have someone know exactly why you are weird or quirky about stuff especially relationships. i just feel like this dude gets me, like i said before he checks off all my requirements. hes motivated and told me he likes me and i told him i like him, so hopefully next time things will be less weird and more natural. im glad we talked on the phone, it was more open and honest. i wasnt scared to say anything, and i let myself be put out there a bit, but not too much and i feel like he did the same. in some ways, hes kind of hard to talk to, like hes kinda straightish, but yet not at all. its a weird combo, so there are theses weird awkward silences where i feel like i need to fill in, because hes nervous or something. its all pretty cute though. we had some good laughs, and he has good stories. hes a bad boy at heart, but is older and more mature, which is so perfect for me. i really can see this going somewhere, i dont know where but somewhere. we both pretty much feel like fate put us here, and are going for it. i hope that the kissing is all good, i think it will when the time is right. i can imagine it being pretty intense, because i think that we both feel like we are giving ourselves up to the other person, in the best of ways of course. meaning like im gonna really let my guard down and try to make this a relationship, and i feel like he is too, so its like putting it all out there, which will lead to way intense shit. either way im way siked on this whole thing, im excited to see where it goes..i have a feeling i know some of his friends, and that will be interesting. (he just texted me and said hes really enjoying getting to know me, and will be thinking about me) how fucking cute is that? its so crazy to have someone actually like me for me, and me like them back. i know it sounds so elementary, but i feel like i never had it like this. it always had some sort of weird situation, with an ex, or not calling me, or some sex that ruined it, or me trying to make it work..this is different, this is just natural and equal, which is the most important thing to me. ive been looking for equality in dating and i got it. i really feel like i got exactly what i asked for.

im happy.