tonight i had a pretty big breakthrough with greg. ive been worried that things werent going to be more relaxed, because i feel like hes a little uptight, but i know hes not deep down inside but he has been with me, and that makes me feel weird and uncomfortable, so tonight i brought it up and it was so smooth and nice to just be able to talk about stuff so openly. like we are so on the same page, and told each other that we liked each other and that we both see this actually going somewhere and everything and he told me he knows he has a shield up but it has nothing to do with me, and he knows it will come down soon, and i agreed, and then things felt a little bit more relaxed..its also been hard because weve just been talking on the phone, but i think its good too. he says hes not really into talking on the phone, and i really think im gonna bring out some parts of him that has held back and vice versa for me too. im really excited about it all actually. i think this is going well and perfect. i also told him i like that its going slow and hes not giving me everything right away, because he wants to get to know me and he agreed..i guess we both just agree on a lot of stuff, and are so honest and open. i told him that he filled all my requirements and more and it felt good to say that. at first i was worried that i was saying too much, but then i realized that i wasnt. i was going with my gut and it was perfect. he talks about the future a lot and plans for us next summer and as much as it semi freaks me out, i like it too. its nice to know that someone wants to spend time with me, and wants to for a long time. its just so comfortable with him, i told him that im not worried about stuff with him that i usually have been, i just know its all gonna be okay, and he said he felt the same! its so nice, i feel like it takes off so much pressure, to actually just be on the same page. i have a feeling there is a tiger inside him that im gonna really be into when it comes out. i look forward to that happening, and im no longer worried about sexual side anymore either. i think its all gonna be great and passionate. i was worried that it would be sloppy and awkward, but i feel like after our talk tonight things just are going the way they are supposed to.
yet again, i am happy. i am even a bit smitten
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