daddy issues...

So there is this huge disaster going on, this huge earthquake happened in Japan and we are dealing with the after effects here in Northern California. I am only an hour away from Crescent City which is where the damage is really happening. Ive been up all night and slept for a few hours woke up to a few emergency calls from my little brothers school, letting us know it is closed. I call over to my dads house to make sure they know and to just check in with them all. So I called again to check in and my dad is like oh this is nothing, which is just stupid because ive been listening to the radio and keeping myself informed and its not okay. Hes so typical and clueless its just fucking stupid. He then proceeds to ask me to watch my little brother so that he can go to work. I just got done telling him that the major roads are closed and that the first waves arent the worst ones, and he decided to argue with me. Now the most annoying part is that all this shit going on with my head and my headaches and face pain, he knows of and never even called to check on me or ask how I was feeling. I told my stepmom that I might have to have surgery and he didnt even call me. Then today when he asked me to watch Blake, I said that my headaches are pretty bad and I am going through my own shit and he acted all mad at me. He needs to get a grip. I think its time for me to have a serious talk with him. All these years I have been trying to find what to say and how to say it to him, and it kind of came to me the other day that he doesnt treat me like his kid, he treats me like a good family friend. There is no doubt that neither of us know what that means, but it does mean to have compassion for me, and to do what he can for me, emotionally and mentally and he never does. When I had a fever he didnt want to bring me anything and made Kris do it on her way to work. He just is so selfish and expects things to be done for him but not for anyone else. I dont feel any love or support from him, and my stepmom always says that its just how he is, and how he grew up but i think its bullshit and an excuse, everyone can change and grow and I dont think its fair that he gets away with it. I have always had this problem with him and I wish I could make it go away. It just makes me not want to even talk to him. He called me a minute ago and told me that the babysitter is coming up and that he is going to work. Like who the fuck makes a teenager come to work during a disaster? its bananas. im just annoyed and need to say something to him at some point.