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Last night I had another intense dream. I was visiting matt gallagher and his family and all of them were there, we were hanging out and chatting, but its weird because it was at nikoles childhood home. strange right? so mr g was sitting on the couch and mrs g was cleaning and cooking or something. i came in and was hanging out with them and then matt came in and i think mikey was there too, hard to say. but he was like stay here, and then i looked outside and there was a car that was really dark and i saw someone inside and they started shooting at us and all these people were outside, i dont know who they are but everyone came running in the house screaming and i was laying on the floor right by the window watching bullets fly past and then they shut the door to the house and the door was a special door that didnt let bullets in and we were all safe, but it was really scary. then matt was gonna go outside and i kept arguing with him about it but knew i wouldnt win so i decided to leave and gave him a kiss on the head and left. in the dream i knew he may get shot anyway, but there was nothing i could do about it. so fucking weird.

I found this online and it kind of makes sense---To dream that someone is shooting you with a gun, suggests that you are experiencing some confrontation in your waking life. You may be feeling victimized in some situation.

i went to the doctor yesterday about my headaches and they finally listened to me, but by doing this they freaked me the fuck out. after we discussed all my issues they came up with 3 things they think i can have. 1-cluster headaches, which i really dont think i have this is more nerve issues. 2-trigeminal neuralgia which is a serious disorder that i have some of the symptoms of and some i dont. 3-temporal arteritis which is a very very serious problem in which i would have to go on steroids and possibly have brain surgery. i honesty think i dont have any of these, i think i have a nerve disorder that is being pushed by something else. like a pinched nerve. i think these doctors are going to try to give me a whole bunch of medicine to try to fix me, but it will be wrong. i just need a fucking cat scan of my brain and it will show everything. thats what i think. i am really against all these medicine options and i honestly dont think i need them. so far today hasnt been bad but last night when i was going to sleep i had an episode of my face killing me really really bad. so there is no doubt something has to happen.