searching for a home..

so im feeling uber antsy, i just want to do something, i want something new! im so bored of this life, this life of being alone all the time. i know that soon i will have terra and jenna around more often, but in reality they will fill a certain void but not the one i need filled. but ya know maybe it will lead to that, maybe me going out more often will lead me into meeting someone. i realized that if im just sitting around my house alone, im not putting anything out there to meet anyone new. im hiding myself away still and i dont mean to, its kinda all i know anymore. i was gonna put an ad up on craigslist, but when i did that last time it didnt work, i met that dude joe, but he was weird as far as i remember. i think he got mad at me a lot or something. either way it didnt work out in my best interest, so im kinda scared to do it again. and besides i dont know what to even write to describe myself. i dont know what i want, wait thats a lie, i totally know what i want i guess i dont know what to say about it in an ad. i dont want to put it all out there and i dont want to not either. i need the balance, but i havent found it yet, so i decided to just wait until i find the right words.

i feel something coming soon, but i also have been saying that for months now. i guess summer time gets me all excited for possibilities of meeting new people. but i also forgot that around here it is never really summer. i wrote a misconnection today too for this hot boy i saw at the bank. i think he is the same boy i met at the talib kweli show. i hope he reads those things. either way im putting the energy out there, and thats all i can do. try try try