For the love of you...

So tonight was a big night in my life. I was told and said I Love You to a man. Holy shit!


Tyler and I decided to start dating two days ago. We decided to call each other Boyfriend and Girlfriend. It felt big, but the whole time I had wished we were saying I love you, because I knew both of us felt it. We felt it in July when we were making love but it was too early. i am really glad we waited until this point, because its smarter and safer for me. I took last week off from him and really tried to figure out how i felt, and i came back with that I really like him and he's the best man I have ever had. its weird though sometimes when i say that i feel like a fraud. As much as i feel this relationship, some part of me feels like a fraud and a phony even though its impossible, because i do feel like he is a great match for me.

So we went out to dinner tonight and had a great time then started talking about jealousy and such and i was going off about something and all of a sudden he was like "yo i fucking love you okay? " and it was magical. I know that sounds weird and everything, but it was just right. It was the perfect time to say it. I had been wanting to say it all night long, but didnt know how. And when he said it it was on. I probably told him i loved him a million times after that too. it just felt nice to be saying that to someone who actually felt it back and wasnt just saying it to say it. there is real emotion there and its obvious.