make me a mixtape..

so i spent the last three days working on this mixtape i finally just finished. i changed it up and down all over the place more than once. i was never pleased. i still feel a tad bit unpleased, but i realized i just need to stop and finish it. there will be others, hopefully. i made this radical cover, with this picture of a womens legs with louis vitton stockings on, super hot. i glued these two snowflakes on it too, one in each corner. they went really well with the picture. i then glued that onto some cardstock and then glued another picture, and obscure weirdo picture of this dude dressed up as a tree, and one as a wolf. dressed in suits. its too funny. then i wrote the playlist down on a postcard, the postcard has a record on it, and its "good vibrations" from the beach boys..besides being one of my favorite songs, it just looks cool..so i decided to make that the name of the mix..its gonna be fun for the receipant. one day they will get this cool ass cd, they will be forced to listen to it, then a few days later get a postcard with the song titles..its genius i tell you. sometimes i surprise myself with how creative and thoughtful i can be.

im really excited because this is the first thing ive really cared about in a while. it took my thoughts, but not a lot. when i had downtime i sat there and worked on it, but i still lived my life. it was a nice balance, that i usually dont have. im usually so gun ho on stuff that i just jump in, but i realized stopping and taking the time to do it right is the best way. ive learned patience i realized. all good things come to those who wait, its so true.

im excited about who i sent it to as well. i dont know what it is, what its meant to be, or where it will go, if anywhere..but its nice to have a mail buddy and someone to talk to and share my life with. i just gotta make sure i dont get all head over heals before i know what it is. i tend to do that sometimes. i guess overall i feel like im growing up more and more every day. i notice these small things, these differences in how i act and its awesome. this place has really helped me grow into the person ive always wanted to be. im grateful for the past few years of my life (along with them all of course) but esp these past two, i feel like when i moved here novemeber 2006, i am a TOTAL different person. a much healthier, happy, conscious person.